LESSONS

…i’m back with Child Hope and the “MDL” kids for a few days. a few days? can’t believe i return to the states on thursday. this is where i spent my whole trip in july. i was excited to come back, but also a little nervous… i didn’t know if the kids would remember me and i doubted they would be nearly as excited to see me as i was to see them.  its not that i come here to haiti for myself, and to be affirmed by the children that i encounter. i felt like i built something with these kids this summer, i love them, and i longed for a continuation of that, rather than a starting over. for them to know that i came here for them :) God is good. it has been a joy already to reunite with these precious ones, and so fun to see Brooke and spend time with her.  someone asked me at dinner tonight how my day was and if i was feeling at home… yeah, yeah i am. sigh… what does that mean?

i am not one to jump into anything quickly. i’m “slow to warm up.” i am uncomfortable, awkward, shy, and anxious in new situations. the Lord is working on me in this area, i feel myself forcing my way, uncomfortably, out of my shell. it is painful sometimes. but that’s growth for you. there are times, though, when doing what is unnatural doesn’t feel quite so horrible. those are good moments :) God moments. thanks for working on me… for caring enough to do so. help me step out of my comfort zone in the direction you want me to go. i love you.